Gaius Caesar

Inworldz Resident (ex mentor): "xxxxx I responded to your blog post directly so I won't repeat it here unless I feel it's necessary or if you wish to quote it please feel free. All I will say is no doubts about it. I believe you hit this nail FLAT on it's HEAD and no doubts rosa will feel the exact same way. Congratulations on calling it as we see it! I have found truth in your words written here and on your blog!

For those that are interested and do wish to see all I had to say personally you can find my full response here: http://fanciful-muse.livejournal.com/21424.html"

Yes, I'll admit it. I said this. Why hide my name? In case anyone wants to know, it's Gaius Caesar on the IW forums, it's GaiusJulius CaesarAugustus within IW itself. I'm willing to take full responsibility for anything I say. I'm not going to take back the words typed. I'm not that cowardly. I spoke on that as well as anyone that reads the forums knows.

What this all boils down to. And this is the truth no matter how you slice it. There was and is ONE "big name". Yes, only ONE that stands out in the crowd of many in IW from SL that thinks what was said was a direct attack against them.

It was once that brought it upon themselves. Just yesterday I and rosa went to that Region. We we're asked, "Why we were there." To which the reply was, "To see the wall of hate". Referring to this blog:

http://razorblade-cookies.blogspot.com/2010/07/these-padded-walls-and-tv-screens.html

In direct reference to this particular quote, "We DO not offer an extended license as we have a presence in Inworldz. We promise we won't ask for a free copy of your builds for Inworldz if you don't ask for a free license to use our textures. A Boycott Wall of Shame for violators will be at Builders Paradise in Inworldz."

Naturally we were curious. We wanted to see if it actually existed. As this is the very person that took everything said personally. I suppose however if the truth of something fits you then it must be why it hurts and makes you scream.

Then in that very same blog it quotes this same creator from SL and IW where they say, "We do not need cheap gimmicks. Gimmicky devaluing sales ploys only accomplish training our customers to only buy our things when they are marked down to a ridiculously low price." When in fact that's contradicting EXACTLY what they're doing in IW!

They're using cheap tactics now after feeling guilty for what was said and taking it far to personally. If they honestly felt their prices were justified why stoop to doing this? Why allow what anyone including myself sway your way of thinking? What I and others say is just our opinion and feeling. It in no way says, "you don't belong here."

On the contrary. You came to IW for whatever your reasons were. If you came on request of those that loved you in SL great! We applaud you for taking that plunge and wanting to make people happy! Why then change now just because you make some seemingly upset? There's no real rhyme or reason. Other then feeling pegged perhaps?

Everyone that comes to IW comes for their own reasons. No one can actually force anyone to do anything they don't want to do. I and rosa did offer the above quoted individual and her partner help and advice upon their arrival to IW. At the request of one of the Founders. What it amounted to was, "That's a lot of work. It will take so much time." Which we agreed though it's worth it in the end to do things the way they work.

It was more about how to and what doesn't yet work as well as it should. Not so much about pricing then which is up to the creator. I get pricing your things according to the US value of the currency. Don't get me at all wrong there. If that's what you like to do great! Do it and feel justified in doing it. You came to IW after all at the request of others that purchased from you in another grid.

Doing what you say you don't need to do because I and others may disagree with your, "attitude" however shows more about your true character then anything else. Then to state in your SL profile, "If someone would like to know about how I feel about something or what my opinion may be, then man or woman up and ask. This he said she said shit is just that .. shit. Cloak and dagger copy and paste shouldn't be necessary in an adult community." Yet you post on the forums then delete WHOLE posts of nasty remarks you say to others hoping we'll all just forget? At least when I post something ANYWHERE I have the balls to not do delete it! I'll stand behind what I say. Perhaps even read something that makes me think a little and admit I made a mistake or changed my mind!

I'll stop now as that's enough out of me. I have opinions on almost every subject. I don't expect everyone to agree with me. Hell I don't expect that some will agree with me ever. That's their right. Though it's also everyone's right to charge what they want for what they create. Though why say one thing then do what you speak you shouldn't? That makes no sense at all.

New Year Prayer

God grant us this year a wider view,
So we see others' faults through the eyes of You.
Teach us to judge not with hasty tongue,
Neither the adult ... nor the young.
Give us patience and grace to endure
And a stronger faith so we feel secure.
Instead of remembering, help us forget
The irritations that caused us to fret.
Freely forgiving for some offense
And finding each day a rich recompense.
In offering a friendly, helping hand
And trying in all ways to understand;

That all of us whoever we are ...
Are trying to reach an unreachable star.
For the great and small ... the good and bad,
The young and old ... the sad and glad

Are asking today; Is life worth living?
The answer is only in, loving and giving.
For only Love can make man kind
And Kindness of Heart brings Peace of Mind.

By giving love, we can start this year
To lift the clouds of hate and fear.

written by Helen Steiner Rice

I know I'm the One that is looked to by so many to have all the answers. I do all I can to give the answer I feel in My heart to be true. I don't care to like or to hide anything from the ones I feel closest to. Though even then I always somehow manage to keep them away or feel as if somehow someway they matter so much less then perhaps they should.

I've never cared for the feeling of having something end. I've had it occur quite often. One would believe I'd be use to it by now. Though it never gets easier. I'm certain many more ask why or how if it wasn't real. The truth of the matter is every bit of what I do and give to anyone is real. I don't see anything as a game that's just being played. Yet so many more seem to. Be that in real life or anywhere else people can be found.

I don't give My trust so fast which I speak on so often as that's not wise to do. What I do tend to give too quickly perhaps is a part of Me that cares. I have the capacity to love so many. When so many only wish to have one. I've always felt that was limiting the amount of love a Man can and should give. Perhaps that in and of itself is wrong. As I try to bring those that I have given My heart to together it just seems to always end up in some way driving us all apart.

There's a lot to life much give and much take. Perhaps I require to much giving. Perhaps I wish for too much to make another Mine. Perhaps the truth is I just hate to let go even when letting go is what's needed. I want everyone to be happy. Yet even when I believe Myself to have found it. I seem to also soon allow it to flee. It's as if I know what I want yet too I don't know how to keep it.

I require a lot from anyone perhaps more then some wish to give. There are others that give up all so readily though only to be hurt in some way by the other things that are Me. The feelings I have that seem to come then go only to return too begin it seems to push so many away. I wish I knew Myself in full. I know about Me and the things I deal with daily. I want to believe I truly know Me though quite often even that is a mystery.

To use labels and words that Professionals use only speaks on the surface. Though it does tell some things that are harder to change as they are a greater part of the what the person is. More so the daily struggles they face and deal with on a daily basis. What it doesn't show it the way they feel each day. The emotions thoughts and feelings that go along with such things. As much as that's what I wish to share with all. Even I all to often don't even understand Myself.

I've given Myself over time to quite a few. Loved them deeply and fully. Only to see them go. Either by My word and hand or by the choice they too have made. None of which make things any better or easier to let go. As I have then given a part of Myself that I can never truly take back. I gave it freely and totally I wished to to keep us close. Perhaps at times even love and caring isn't always enough.

I suppose the essence of the though is. How then honestly do I do this for another and help them on this journey that we should share. If I don't know actually how to even do these very vital things for Myself? They've called Me Master and yet I don't always even seem to know how to Master even Myself. My life in so many areas and places is a complete wreck. Why? I'm certain mostly do to My not truly wanting to acknowledge it. As if it will just go away.

All that I've written here isn't even the beginning. I have so many emotions and feelings bottled up inside. I just never will set free. I won't say I find any peace or harmony. I just know they are part of Me that I don't know how or even if I wish to set free.

As some are well aware of as of today. I've sent an invitation out inviting those closest to My girl and I. It's an invitation to the Collaring ceremony. That is to take place on November 8, 2010. It's a day I have longed for that feels like forever. This will bring us to a better place as well as even closer if that's possible as I certainly believe it is. As we have given ourselves to each other totally and completely in all ways as a sub should to her Master and Master to His sub.

My girl is now carrying our babies in SL. We're expecting twins on January 21, 2010. The names haven't been chosen as yet though that is more due to not yet knowing the sex of the children then anything else. I'm certain soon we will and then that news too will be shared with the world as well as our closest of friends.

On the day My rosa is to be collared in the ceremony she will too become My partner. We are already in truth though this will make it official. We share everything with each other which I would wish nothing less. We are partners in every sense of the word. This will just tie it all together and make it official. It's a way for us to show even more the love and devotion we share and always will.

My rosa has as of yesterday October 21, 2009 conceived our first child(ren) in SL. The names and sex(es) are yet unknown though we do know we will be proud parents within the coming months. The exact date is yet undetermined as well. It will be a glorious moment no doubt. As it has been a very pleasurable time thus far. Our Home is about to grow in the most unique fashion. I'm pleased to make the announcement for those who wish to see. :)

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